Thank you guys so much for being so patient with me. I try t..
🕑 Added 2021-04-04 02:57:48 +0000 UTC
Thank you guys so much for being so patient with me. I try to be open with you all when possible, and this is one of the times when I feel like you very much deserve to know what’s going on. I’ve been really struggling in front of the camera, with my confidence, and honestly in general for the past couple weeks with imposter syndrome. Wanting to create, trying to create, but ultimately feeling as though Im not reaching expectations, and am somehow unworthy of the love you all give me. I understand that my brain producing thoughts doesn’t make them true. However, im sure you can understand that sometimes the negative thoughts overpower the positive. I spent most of this week off, in bed, and this weekend with my family to try and reset with some much needed visits and venting.
These days can be hard to get through, because this really is my passion, and my biggest goal and favourite thing to do is creating for and pleasing you. And when I feel unable to create, I understand that you guys are also missing out. I’m wondering if taking lower quality, unplanned content (snapchat pics/videos) on these days is a more appropriate filler than silence? I always wonder if the frumpy/sleepy/sad look works for you lol. I hope to continue to reach your expectations. My messages are always open to you, even when I’m not active or posting.
I WILL be more kind to myself. I WILL create. I WILL have better days🖤
