do you dream of me...?
i'm working on a few larger (and col..
🕑 Added 2021-06-04 01:26:25 +0000 UTC
do you dream of me...?
i'm working on a few larger (and collaborative!) video projects for my onlyfans that are taking so much under-the-radar energy from me, but i can't wait for them to be done. i also had this crazy ass revelation the other day that i don't connect with you all as much!! i really want to start being more open on here and talking through my days like i do with my instagram captions, or even dumb twitter rants.
a few years ago, i was living in brooklyn NY as a full-time sex worker. when i did that, i had an onlyfans that wasn't really my main source of income -- i didn't have high-quality content to upload, nor a sense of passion or direction in the content i was making. i saw it as a quick dollar to buy myself a dinner every now and again, kind of.
now, i spend most of my time making and selling content. whether it's on this site, my print shop (link in my instagram bio!), art for my portfolio / instagram, or brand deals on my tiktok, i'm usually making some shit and people are diggin' it.
i wasn't respecting this platform as another avenue to my soul, and it started to affect my willingness to make content for it. i was so nervous that i was going to be disrespected by people who weren't even taking the time to know me, to really know me, that i just decided i shouldn't make content at all.
that trickled it's way into my daily routine, my creative drive, and my personal love life. i felt like i was being held back by something of my own doing -- when in reality, this platform gives me the gratitude and freedom i have in my daily life.
i want to apologize for not treating you all with respect. you're so kind to me about my art and my energy, and i haven't thanked you enough. i promise i'm going to start doing a better job with this -- thank you for being so patient with me :-)
xx
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p.s. there are a few of you who sent money for the last $8 video and didn't get it -- please DM me on Instagram with a screenshot of your purchase! my phone isn't letting me send them to your numbers for some reason.
thanks guys. seriously.
