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🕑 Added 2020-03-10 05:56:39 +0000 UTCHeyooo
Just doing a little update for you guys. Mostly to apologize for pretty much radio silence for a little more of a week since last submission |3;;;
Honestly speaking, I believe I'm burning out a little, haha. Last week I was everyday trying to finish the comic page I uploaded now, but I would get sooo little work done every day. Mostly feeling a little unwilling to work, which doesn't help my stress of seeing the pile of rewards I'm missing to fulfill |3;;;;...
It's a little vicious cycle~, feel like I need a break so I can go back to have tons of energy to work, but I can't do it with peace of mind thinking the longer I take to work, the later I'll catch up with everything.
I even took to making sunday my free day every week to try to make things better for myself, but even then I can't stop thinking on what's next or on how I could be working...specially when the day before I could have been about to finish a pic, lol!
Sooo yeah, I'm sorry for not fulfilling my work as fast as I should, but just know that I'm trying, haha. I'm not gonna stop working until everything is set <3
That's also to say that I'm not gonna take any "long breaks", I realize that writting this I might worry some people, but know that I wholeheartedly believe that I will be much happier once I have caught up with everything, that putting up witht his stress will be only until I catch up.
...specially because...well, as I mentioned before about my mom, she has been treating the cancer accordingly, even going to her 3rd chemotherapy soon (She already lost all her hair, now she wears a bandana like mine <3).
I want to go see her in person before her surgery, to give her strength and to be there for her, but that means I'll be back to Chile for almost a month straight, which could mean quite a slow down on my art output. So I really need to catch up so I don't make things even worse for everyone x3;;.
There are no concrete dates for the trip, cancer is pretty naughty and it might be more resilent, it might take this third chemotherapy as it might take 9 for it to finally be of a good size for the surgery to extract it to go alright. But of course I'll comunicate with you all when the time is nigh.
I might even consider hibernating this patreon at that time so no more people join in for a pretty expectedly inactive account.
That's pretty much it, thank you for listening (read: reading) to this charchar rant and stuff, haha <3.
You guys take care over there and expect a lot of char art soon enough, because I'm aiming to make tons of things >:v
Char char!
Comments
Vitrex
If anything I have heard tons of horror stories about people abusing other's good will to get preferential treatment and then not deliever anything in return. I'd hate to be seen like that =w=;;;. That's why I don't like being indebted to anyone. Specially when I have some of the most patient patrons/fans I could ever have XD, would hate to "abuse" all of this love, and for me it's sort of an abuse to not deliver on so much art for so long! Thank you for all the support as always <3, and don't worry, I am trying my be..*SHOT* <3
Solomon
I'm a bit late in commenting on this one and there's not much I can add to what has been said. I believe I can understand you; I too have a conscience that I deliberately try to keep clean and I likewise avoid to get a feeling of debt towards other people, even if it's just imaginary. And don't tell me about motivation and vicious circles, I know that all too well. But the point is that I will continue to support you, no matter what decision you make. Don't ask why, just let it make you feel a little less stressed and a little more relaxed. I know you always do your best, no need to reassure me. Best wishes to you and your mom from me as well!
Vitrex
That's lovely to hear, send my regards to her <3 It must have been quite the fight indeed, here's hoping she keeps going strong <3, also thank you for the support Vee~
Vee4eva
Shes been in remission for 4 years so yes!
Vitrex
Oh that's rough, ouch, is she doing alright?
Vitrex
I totally get that, but I -am- behind on rewards for like...5 months by now? |3;;;, with how slowly I have been working? So it's really hard to justify a break when that just means I'll be even more behind XD But as I have been telling some people, this problem of mine might just be a thing of the moment, so here is hoping that I can blow you all away with all the cute (i hope) art I'm gonna produce =w= Char!
Vitrex
Oh don't worry about it, you don't need to do that!, haha. Money is always a worry, but getting more this month won't dissuade that little voice in the back of my head saying "You need to work to make 'em bills", lol. So please don't do it, haha. I totally appreciate it but I do think it's more a problem in my head than anything else =w= Also I see what you mean, motivation is heavily influenced by "successes" and "objectives". I might do something like that, though it's a little hard when I don't have quite the grasp yet on my work speed =w= Not for nothing I keep thinking "I should be able to finish this tomorrow" and instead take like 4 days making it |3;;; <3
Vitrex
Hehehe, well thank you <3, I really don't know what I did to deserve all this support, we are both surprised over here (hubby too, lol) But I'll give it my best, don't you worry =w=
NeoPata
You *are* the best~
Vitrex
It's okay =w=, I am mostly hoping this is just a thing of the mood in general tbh. So I am gonna keep on working and see if the slump is really a thing or if I got "over it" <3 Also you are totally right, setting up a "no work" time does help relax a little more. If anything I won't have much of a choice once I visit my mom xD, we'll see <3
Vitrex
Dawww, that's lovely to hear! Dunno what I did to deserve all this love, but thank you very much <3 I might consider it, but I still want to see if this slump is going on its own or not, gonna work hard these days to have a better assestment, but I'd really like to avoid the break, haha <3
Vitrex
Rawr >:3 I'm doing mah best!
Xmysterionz
Take a long breath and relax. Sometimes we need to stop a bit to work better and we completely understand that.
Milo
I'd like to tell you to take a longer break, but I know all-too-well about the grind of being low on funds. Maybe I'll up my pledge in the next couple weeks, so you can feel a little safer taking the break you need. If you have trouble staying willing/motivated to draw, it helps to get a calendar and start making sure to draw/work on one thing a day. If you manage it, put a big X through that day, so you know you did it. When you start a streak, it will be much easier to keep going.
Zarro
I can only echo what has already been said, I really hope things go well for you and just remember we got your back <3
ZerokTheKobold
Sorry to hear that you are feeling burned out and all, what helps me with relaxing myself is taking more than just 2 or 3 days off, whenever i only have a few days off, i keep thinking about starting to work again, which i actually don't want to, so taking a week or two off usually helps me with calming down, since i know i won't have to work any time soon! Anyway, i hope you'll get some relaxation in soon! <3
Scott Mchugh
I have only been following you for a little while, but i have loved your art since the first time i read mischief on the rocks, and if you decide to take a break for a month i will be right here waiting because your art is amazing and you are an amazing artist all the best to you and your mother ❤️😊😊
NeoPata
Keep fighting the good fight hon, you can do it
Teena Turner
I understand. But I wouldn't abandon ship just because you take a month off <3
Vee4eva
My mom had cancer 5 timee, so I know the struggle. Hang in there and you will pull through. I am.always around to talk if you need to.
Vitrex
I totally understand that, but I'm the only source of income here, not making them monies would be worst, wouldn't be able to rest peacefully knowing I'm not making the dosh and I'm getting ever more late with stuff =w=, but thank you for the sentiment <3 I just need to work a little harder
Teena Turner
Honestly you should really just take a month off from patreon or something. Burnout is no fun and it'll just get worse. I would totes understand if you take a break. Take care <3
