Javier owo
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May 2025 Update: Sorry for the Delays
🕑 Added 2025-05-21 00:13:34 +0000 UTC( PERSONAL NOTES )
It's been quite a while since the last update, I'm not gonna even sugar coat it, stuff has been harder, too hard. From my wrist not being able to keep up with pending comms... it does put too much stress on me sometimes. My commissioners reassure me that they don't mind waiting ... I'm thankful, I don't really deserve that much patience. Im trying harder and harder, I can't just give u,p however.
Been trying to really pick up the pace without destroying my wrists. I've been trying to do much more stretches and even got help getting a brace (Thanks Caenn)
Not to mention certain world events making life very insufferable... My family and I have been struggling getting out to get necessities... Without the fear of them or me being taken away. Im scared still... and hungry, and stressed. I might not show it in chats or VCs... I try and mask it when I'm around people.
I'm thankful for those who have helped me get a bite to eat, err... you have no idea hah,,, same with helping me mentally... (Thank you to my big fucking drolf ever <3, And Shout to to ADKXDY for helping me with some important things too. You came in clutch and I will grab you with something nice once stuff dies down)
I want to get streaming again... just afraid I may end stream early some days because of the wrists...
Aside from the gloom... Thank you everyone who gives a shit about me. Im tired and honestly there have been times where I wanted to just quit everything and disappear. But I have yall to ground me and return me. Its hard... and as much as I try to be indifferent about the serious stuff happening to me, I cant help but cry. I cry and gush and hug everyone close. Ive been starving, working, eating here and there, helping where I can. That or just sleeping a lot just to conserve whatever energy I have left for a given work week.
I wish I had a job, or maybe I don't... it would make things easier that's for sure.
Thats enough of me yapping... Guess Ive been bottling a lot, I swear I don't want these to be mostly vent heh. But I guess its both an update on myself, and my work. Thank you for your patience.
Brett, Oric, Leon, Lanez, Zora, Caenn, Crumpet, Jake: Im so sorry for taking too long on things. Im not usually this slow, I know what I'm capable of... me taking this long just means something horrible is wrong with me and or my circumstances are not the best. I am a fast worker, I can do the job. But lately burn out and the wrist issues have been climbing. That and working to keep an income for bills doesn't help. Please if you ever want to be just ... done with me. Please don't be afraid to request a refund and I will work on some plan to be able to pay back anything I owe...
( NEWS ON THE NEW GAME ENGINE UPGRADE )
Ive been having fun with the game again between commissions... Its been forever since my last update and I'm stoked to show more soon~ Just recently, I had upgraded the engine. I was stuck on 2.0.5 beta for so long... now its 4.1.3 and it has so may nice features.
The game now can support better things, however I will be making a sacrifice to one of my old goals, being I wanted to run it on the original gameboy, now that may not be possible unless I made a version specific for it, but at least gameboy color is the next best thing haha~
Double more unique tiles... better actors... bigger animations... its all so thrilling. Im proud with how far this dorky li game has come along. It will help me write better and conceptualize my world finally~
