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Record of a fool's life
🕑 Added 2024-10-16 17:16:18 +0000 UTCFor the first time in two months, I went out properly. Three hours by train.
Excited about a real open world, I enjoyed the annoying crowds.
Ate some ramen noodles.
I bought some clothes at my usual store. I found a checkered shirt that almost looks black. Upon closer inspection, it had orange and blue lines, which gave it a complex, almost green color. Along with it I bought a burnt umber T-shirt.
It was almost black all over, but if you look closely, you can see a slight difference in hue.
I liked my outfit that way.
Until recently, I had no interest in fashion and wore only black clothes.
But I learned from Skyrim, BotW and Armored Core.
Changing colors is fun.
Whether it makes sense or not, the illusion is the truth.
I put clothes on in the fitting room, check them out, and head to the checkout with them on.
I learned how to buy equipment through games.
On the train ride home, I read a book. "The Psychology of Form and Image".
There was a reference to language and symbols being a kind of illusion.
I had the pleasure of unexpectedly connecting knowledge with knowledge.
Suddenly I got off at an unknown station and spent an hour in front of the station.
A familiar scene in an unfamiliar city. There, I find the interest of recognition.
I sat on a bench and smirked as I read the comments of admiration posted on my pixel art.
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I've had a lot of pessimism since I got back.
I found no movie reviews that I could relate to.
I accidentally discovered that I was blocked by a stranger.
I haven't received a reply to an email I wrote in a flippant manner.
I haven't made any progress on my painting.
Today's diary was actually intended to be a “diary of pessimism” in which I wrote about them.
But after I finished writing, I realized. It is all pessimism because I know happiness.
Sadness is caused by the fall from happiness.
But I had completely forgotten about happiness, which is the cause of sadness.
It's so silly. How many happy times I had spent until then!
So silly that I put it on record here.
Comments
Louis Holding
beautiful and poetic. life is about finding fulfilment in the mundane every day actions and finding the reasons to keep pushing yourself forward
Brantly McCord
Critical thinking is a wonderful and important thing! When we sense a difference between good and bad, we can use our awareness to challenge those notions, and we can get a better grip on what matters most in our material reality! I hope you will keep that balance alive, and take plenty of care as we all navigate through the ups and downs!
