Bonnie A.
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Anxious Attachment
🕑 Added 2026-01-16 03:59:56 +0000 UTCI get nervous when someone doesn’t answer
I get nervous I did something wrong
I get nervous I am losing them
Losing their friendship
Losing their love
I read into everything too much
I get in my head about it for hours
For days
Worrying the vibe has changed
Worrying he found someone else
I get scared I’ll be alone
Really alone
Like I was growing up
I just wanted to be loved
I just wanted to be someone’s person
Their favorite person
I just wanted to know what that felt like
I don’t mean to get anxious
I don’t mean to get sad
I don’t mean to overthink
I don’t mean to make things overwhelming or confusing at times
I’m just scared to be abandoned
I don’t want to be this way
I don’t want to compare you to them
I don’t want to think your anything like anyone else
Maybe you are different
Maybe you are easy going
Easy
Safe
But I’m so scared I’m wrong
I don’t know what to do
I can’t keep doing this
I just wanted you and I to be an us
I just want you
For once
I wish I was also someone’s top choice
Maybe I’m delusional
But I thought that love was here
I thought maybe we could grow
I don’t want to lose you
But I also hate being this way.
It’s been a long time
You would think your body would forget such things
But it doesn’t
It brings you right back to the trenches
It fucks with you
Till you can’t breathe
Till you’re self sabotaging
Till you’re alone again
Comments
Lynn Taylor
You’re so valid in your feelings princess, trust me, but you’ve gotta deserve better than how you feel. He’s either not worth it, or you can work to be a woman that will make men like that cry. Love isn’t about being perfect, it’s about trying your best. You are a beautiful woman. Move forward, with beauty and grace. Like you deserve.
Denis
🥺🫂
Chaos Reaper
Ditto
