CarissaExplainsNothing
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Abandoned
🕑 Added 2023-12-11 16:29:54 +0000 UTCI don’t have an irrational fear of abandonment, I have evidence.
I recently posted this on Threads:
Seeking connection and fear of abandonment cause me to abandon my own self in pursuit of meaningful relationships. Friendships, romantic relationships, family… in every type of relationship I’ve consistently betrayed my ideals, goals, and boundaries for other people, ignoring my true feelings and needs to be present for others and mold myself to what I think they want.
Acknowledging this has been incredibly painful. Working toward healing of attachment wounds that feel like they run through the core of my being is so challenging, but one of the most important things I need to address to learn to be good to myself and have healthy connections with the people in my life.
Although most people I have ever cared about have left me, I cannot leave myself. Learning to maintain my own sense of self worth in the midst of internal loneliness and external abandonment is my current journey.
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Wanting to fit in and be accepted by your peers is challenging. Learning to accept that not everyone will like you and not let that bother you is a huge part of growth. Love yourself first most and always. Respect for sharing your journey.
It's difficult to explain to folks what abandonment does to you, especially when folks keep doing it and you're not clear as to why. You start digging to find answers for questions that simply put, aren't really meant to be asked much less answered. Cause after a while you figure out when you have done all you can to be the best you that you're capable of being, it's them not you. We all deserve that one who will find reasons to stay while everyone else found reasons to dip out.
