MatHaz
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Let's Get a Little Real
🕑 Added 2022-12-15 01:44:24 +0000 UTCI have a small tumor in my spinal cord.
I'm not sure if I ever came out and said it before, but I have alluded to it once or twice. Doctors tell me I am particularly lucky because people with my condition usually find out when the tumor's grown so much that it has already done irreparable nerve damage and left them paralyzed.
In my case, the doctor opened me up a few years ago and took out some of the tumor. Not all because it's in a tricky spot, but enough that I'm not in any immediate danger. I just have to do a few regular check ups to monitor whether it has grown or not. I did suffer some nerve damage, but not enough to stop me from living a normal life. If you saw me walking down the street, you wouldn't think to yourself, "Hey, that guy mostly can't feel his left leg."
But then I had a little episode a couple of weeks ago. Whole half of my body went numb as opposed to just some of it, and I couldn't move my arm right. Didn't last long, not even a minute, but it was scary. Mega scary. That was my cue to rush to my doctor, get a couple of tests done, then a few more tests, and then seeing my doctor again. It was a thing.
That's why this week's chapter was late.
In the end, nothing new was found. By all accounts, I am the definition of stable. My little episode was just a freak accident.
But it got me thinking. See, I am not just writing this whole thing to let you know why this chapter was late. I could have just said I had medical issues and called it a day.
But well, what if it happens again? And it stays like that instead of going away? If that happens, well, you're not going to hear from me for weeks.
It might not ever happen. I might be worrying too much. But it's not completely impossible, you know?
So you know, just a head's up.
Edit:
Since I have worried you all (because, of course I did, this is why I never let you see first drafts but I accidentally hit post instead of schedule this time) let me make a few things clearer for you all:
I am fine.
I can even do a handstand. Probably. Haven't tried in a while, but I am sure I could.
But really, the point is I have lived with this for years, and it's barely an issue most of the time. Just erring on the side of caution here.
Comments
DayWalker
🙏🤗
Logan Teague
Well, ain't that a kick in the teeth. Stay strong man, praying for you!
Gavriel
"I have a spinal tumor" thank you for freaking us out! 😆
