Konokono
patreon
🕑 Added 2016-07-19 10:37:36 +0000 UTC
Hey guys. Time to get a few things off my chest. Will try and keep it short.
I will have to make changes to Patreon. As of last month, I will pick out the remaining 10$ patreon sketches and will remove the 10$ patreon tier.
The tier was an immense pain from the get go. I felt like raffles/gambling was not fair towards the patreons, and decided I’d make it as “fair” as possible, with everyone getting a turn.
That, in the end, turned out an even bigger complication for a myriad of reasons; Ever increasing “accounting”, a system that is way too complicated for what most other artists treat with an “at whim” attitude and leniency, placing myself in a position of a constant state of “overwhelmed” (some people insisted on not getting a sketch while others had many ideas and were eager to see them done; Neither of the two are wrong or bad, mind you,) and an ever increasing pressure to make every sketch at least as good as the last out of sheer baseless guilt, to name a few.
I’ve noticed a downward trend in the last few months specifically, with “spikes” of motivation becoming less and less frequent as time went by. The Patreon Sketch Stream ideas, something I wanted to make so almost anyone could get an idea of theirs drawn, slowly became a losing game for me mentally, to the point where the last two months made me question my love for art and drawing in general, and relapsed me into a depressive state I wasn’t in for a good 5-6 months, if not more.
I love this community although I am horrible at interacting with it. Patreon is probably the first time where I realized “A large group of people actually really enjoy my art.” (A sort of positive feedback blindness on my end.) Size smut is content I drew because back in my dark days, and it was maybe the only thing that felt earnestly positive to make and Patreon is threatening that by making it an obligation that I cannot process as an emotional net profit.
My art feels like it has been stagnating and I have been less and less inclined to actually improve and devote the time needed to make things happen. So it’s time to change that.
I will think about what changes I’ll make to my Patreon in the next month, and I will try and make it something that respects all you that have been supporting me all this while; As it stands, I am not able to make any art anyway, so I might as well accept that changes need to be made. Dropping down the pledge a tier or cutting it entirely is understandable. Money was never the priority anyway.
Thanks for reading the wall of text, and more importantly, thank you for the support you as a community have given me.
Tl;dr 10$ patreon tier is getting nicked due to personal reasons after this month, the change is for the better overall and thank you for the support. I’ll try and make everyone who donated 10$ get a drawing if possible. I'll try and make sure everyone who's paid 10$ sees something out of it.
Comments
JBlume
"slowly became a losing game for me mentally, to the point where the last two months made me question my love for art and drawing in general, and relapsed me into a depressive state I wasn’t in for a good 5-6 months, if not more." Dear KonoNiko, Thank you vulnerability in sharing this. Thank you for taking care of yourself and your artistic drive. Thank you for being willing to make changes and try new things. Personally, I love your style and I'm glad to be a part of your creations. And I certainly wouldn't want to drag you down. I'm not much of an artist, but I've heard from artists that finding ways to nourish your creativity and artistic drive can be a challenge, but the journey is worth it. I hope you take time for yourself and try lots of fun things to find what you need to care for your artistry.
Rooth
Haha, I take it back; I forgot you drew a Helpful Macro Project piece, also in February. :). It was awesome! How could I forget!? :-O
Rooth
It's funny how the Patreon mechanism really changes the dynamic. Good for you for having the perspective to see what it was doing to you, and taking action to remedy it. You have a high wisdom score ;). Although I never emailed you with any ideas, I appreciated the opportunity. I just didn't stay on top of it. Oh well. :) Are you keeping the goal structure? 'Raffling' off some sketch hours? Or was that tied to the $10 tier?
