hibbary
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Been kind of preoccupied, sorry for that!
🕑 Added 2024-04-10 19:26:55 +0000 UTCMy restless leg is back and my sleep has been very poor. So I've been dragging my feet.
Also a few minor interactions on Twitter were kind of the last straw and I just like, blocked the site and promised myself I need to either avoid it altogether, or radically change the way I engage with it, or engage with myself, or the world, or SOMEthing. The place is a cesspit and aggravates my already strong impulse to ruminate in circles. Most people on there are fine, normal people, but opening myself up to those who aren't is just needlessly masochistic.
Not sexy-masochistic, either.
Stupid-masochistic.
Like, why do I do it to myself? It's the worst possible place for any kind of validation. Because nobody IRL really supports me in any significant way? Twitter is still worse.
So I'm taking a long break. And I might just close down comments over there, to avoid getting involved.
The GOOD news is, once I've got the poison bled out I'll have more time for art and posting here. The bad news is, right now I'm just trying to get my sanity back and get my sleep back on schedule.
But I have have a plan of attack and I'm going to go out and get the required supplements today. I'm excited to put it into motion! Building up the iron in one's blood just takes so long; I need to add something else in there.
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hibbary
Thanks! You are absolutely right. It's really not worth it. My trouble is that my really permeable bubble and borked parasympathetic nervous system means that sometimes a comment, even a relatively innocuous one, will sometimes trigger a trauma cascade. It's one of those things that you can't brute force your way through. And honestly, I'd rather be working on something, anyway. So I need to disengage! I appreciate your empathy! I know how to fix it; just takes a while.
hibbary
I DO really appreciate that. I'm not disappearing entirely. i'm just trying to engage with the internet more healthily. I'm one of those people who like, I don't know, seeks validation from it too much. Which is pretty normal, I think, as far as human behavior goes, but since it's not actually family/a human band, it gets people in trouble, myself included! What I mean to do is to interact with individuals more, like comments here. I've been neglecting Patreon.
Baron03
For Twitter, use the mute button frequently, and don’t take any of it personally (especially for politics). It’s not worth getting upset over, but it is designed to be addicting. That helps make it a fun place for me. Sorry that you still have to deal with restless legs! Losing sleep is awful. Aside from your legs trying to dance during night hours, I hope the rest is going well for you.
DreamsFar
Hey! You're good people and I appreciate the heck out of you! You've always been 110% awesome to/with/by/whatever-the-appropriate-word-is-here me! Take care of yourself and I hope that you don't disappear entirely - I always enjoy hearing from you / interacting with you!
