Littlekuriboh
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Another hospital update
🕑 Added 2019-10-17 17:58:16 +0000 UTCHello Friends and Patrons. Marianne here. I am writing to let you know that Martin has been readmitted into the hospital; we believe the medication he is on is not strong enough and need to find a new treatment plan. Unfortunately, this sort of stuff feels like throwing darts with your eyes closed. His previous medication worked well, but it was a chemotherapy drug and the length of time he could be on it was limited (2yrs), as it is a severe immunosuppressant and would make him lose consciousness, feel nauseated and weak, etc. We have also been using marijuana now that it is legal to help with inflammation. He's been in varying amounts of pain since his last week long stay in late August and making Dr's calls and visits have almost become a part time job (especially with provider shortages and lack of appointments), to say nothing of the mental tolls that come with your body literally betraying you and your partner, as is the base mechanism of immune disorders. We've been going to therapy 2x a week as well to try and keep our relationship stable thru all of this. We have been trying to throw together a thank you video for our Gofundme in September but we still haven't even managed to do that. When things are bad, Martin has excrutiating bathroom experiences at least once an hour. When things are really bad, he cannot sleep through the night without that sickness. And when it gets really really bad, it comes out both ends almost uncontrollably. On top of all of this, we are still trying to find a new home, as the one we purchased began to overflow with sewage the year after we had to spend $10000 on Air conditioning issues during weeks of summer with 118 degree heatwaves. This is not a home that Martin can get better in.
I wish I had something different to tell you. I wish this year were different. I wish we could do more than wake up and try to push through whatever weird, bizarre trials, feelings and pain that occur once we are conscious--and believe me, I am trying *so* hard to find meaning and purpose to push through what is happening.
This Patreon has been a severe source of guilt for us, as we have produced so little this year despite our best efforts to arrange our lives so we could prioritize content creation. But it has also been such a relieving source of stability. If we had these problems just a few years ago when we had to focus on conventions for income, I dont know if we could have made it through this. I really dont. From the bottom of our hearts, we thank you guys for the help and love you have given, and I am trying to feel that instead of the guilt in moments where I feel like we are not living up to our audience's expectations. You are all so understanding and full of compassion. It makes it difficult to feel we deserve it, but we love and appreciate it. I am trying to focus on the positive.
I'm so sorry I dont have more to give than information. And I'm sorry for more bad news. I hope you all manage to get through the week. Hopefully better news will emerge soon.
Comments
I have been praying so hard for you guys through all of this. So, don't ever feel guilty for getting healthy guys. You want the content you eventually put out to be joyful and not just fake right? so just be patient and know that we just want you to get better. I'm glad to hear on the youtube channel that Martin is feeling a bit better these days (as of the November update). I have been worrying about you guys and sometimes stay up late at night praying for your healing. I am glad to hear from you, so you know, even if things aren't going well because after all these years I feel like Martin is a friend and I get worried if I don't hear about how he is doing for a long time. It has been literally years that I have been enjoying his humor and I never subscribed or donated because I'm not that computer savvy, so don't feel like you owe me anything- you taking a break is just a chance for me to pay my tab and pay you back.
We’ve stuck with you all this time for a reason! There’s no need for you to be feeling guilt! <3 If you want you can take it as us making up for that failed donation on option on the 00s website haha. I’ve only been a Patron for about a year and half but I hope that‘s enough to show I want to stick with you when the going gets tough!
Uriel grey
I also suffer from autoimmune diseases. My sister as well and suffers. From something like Martin but different and is also using the awful chemo meds. She has reactions to food and now to help her she is on a super super, super restricted diet and all her food has to be minced and blended... I feel so deeply for you both. Know we love you and don't feel guilt, feel deeply appreciated and loved. You have a ton of friends who want you both ok and sadly life kinda sucks and ok can take a long time and sometimes it's a new form of ok. Keep strong together and feel the love from us with our virtual hugs!
RakuenOkami
Take as much time as you need to feel better, both of you. This is what Patreon is here for, it'll help keep ends meeting during the rough times. <3 We'll be here whenever you guys get back to your routine.
Keelia Silvis
I'm so sorry to hear about your continued difficulties. 💔 Please please take all the time you need. I hope you will be able to get into a new home/environment that will allow Martin to heal.
TheAlmightyGoblin
I am so sorry to hear what you guys are going through. I've been watching Martin's videos for over 10 years now and only recently subscribed to his Patreon. In my head, I'm just paying him back for the years of laughter. So don't feel bad about the lack of content. I want my contribution to make you happy not stressed. You'll be in my prayers. :)
Very few people can make me laugh as much as Martin's videos. He has an incredible sense of humor and comedic timing. Like others have said, I've been watching since high school, for more than 10 years. Please don't feel guilty, he has given me some happy moments and I am honored to give back. I will up my contribution since you guys are going through it right now. :)
Dave
(hugs) I'm so sorry you're both going through this.
I don't want Martin to feel old on top of everything else, but I've been watching YGO:TAS since high school (aka since just about the start) and I'm honestly just thrilled that I can contribute what I can and I wish I could contribute more, no strings attached (although I admit I like getting these updates so I know y'all're alive). Please, both of you, take care of yourselves and know that we're supporting you all the way so please don't feel guilty for doing what you have to. I know I'd feel horrified if Martin was trying to push out a video while battling all this nonsense because of us, so if you want to make US happy then make sure that you're doing whatever you can to make YOU happy. <3
Thank you for the update, I'm so sorry to hear that both of you are struggling so much and having such a horrible time. I hope Martin manages to find something that works. Your health comes first and I am glad to be able to help in a very small way by supporting your patreon. I can understand why you might feel guilty for not being able to produce as much content as you would like, but your fanbase continues to support you because we feel that you deserve it. Best wishes to you both.
