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♦ Black Rose ♦
🕑 Added 2024-06-04 22:25:44 +0000 UTCWell, WELL, if it isn't the consequences of our actions!! - Is what I would say if Rick didn't look so absolutely miserable in that second pic T.T I seriously can't help feeling bad for him man, but he got his ass served back to him for a good reason. Also they're so young on that first drawing, it makes me sob whenever I think about it and see how much years demolished them UGH
I gave you guys one of these paragraphs before, but since I was going through a bit of a writer's block a few days ago, I was editing to get back in it and gotten these stitched up for contrast <3 they're both from the Kostrov Traces, but the first one is from book 1, and second from book 2, so these are some years apart. They are also pre-professional edit and in draft II, so they may be a bit clunky haha
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For some context, Rick is talking about his wife in the first half of the text. The rose garden was originally hers before her tragic death, and one of the goals she had was creating a perfectly black rose. It's something she never achieved entirely, but the roses still remained very important to Rick for the rest of his life. Those rose bushes were basically the only thing besides Maggie he didn't give up on after Loretta died and cared for them vigorously, even when he hadn't had a first clue about flowers beyond what he saw Loretta do during their few years together.
Second paragraph happens just prior to that sketch where Rick is in the car I did a while back. It's a few days after he had a significant fight with FJ, one that, albeit, came from a mixture of a slowly escalating nervous breakdown mixed with alcohol and a lot of unresolved trauma, but it hurt FJ nonetheless, and he was justifiably still pretty upset. It was the first time Rick's charm and deeply loving personality wasn't enough to overshadow how much he was destroying himself and how much he was hurting the people around him along the way </3
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Fosc X
Thaaank youu aww ❤️🥺❤️ but yesss, the parallels here really mark the beginning and the end of an era for them, things would certainly not go back to as they were for a while after this 💔 Oh and saame, I so agree with you! Life can get so messy so quickly if we forget to care for ourselves as well, it's such an easy thing to overlook but matters SO MUCH to every relationship and every bond we have in life. And I don't see it talked about much when I think the dynamic there can become so painful, for both parties involved 💔 I'm so glad you like them!! They matter so much to me when it comes to everything, but especially overcoming obstacles and just awareness about the importance of mental health, so it seriously means the world to hear this ❤️❤️
Fosc X
Aww yaas it was the roses! ❤️ and honestly I'm still rethinking finishing these once I have some time, I really love those two scenes so it might happen in the future! And yee, the second part was shared here a few weeks ago, underneath that sketch I did of Rick 🥰 it's a connected scene so it felt right to share it there as well haha But yess ahh, they really drifted apart that day and things really would never completely go back to as they were until years later when Rick was finally getting sober 💔
FiishFinity
ILL SOB UNCONTROLLABLY. Absolutely valid that you cry in this bit because omg. I love the parallels here. The roses being the common denominator, as well as both of them. But time and the tragic lifestyles had done it wear and tear. It is so heartbreaking. I just wanna give them both all the hugs. All of the comfort. The turmoil of life is so unfair. And it scars the soul, not just the skin. It’s always such a heavy burden. Especially when you don’t take care of yourself first. Or even at all. And then the absolute burden of loving with somebody who is so broken, bro, that is so hard! Much harder than some people might realize! I adore them with all my soul. I completely understand. The agony in the scars left from such pain as a consequence to life’s unfair advances. I just want nothing but the best for them!!!!
anammorar
Ooooooow xC - Woooow . . . This is so heartbreaking. I knew the first drawing had as the background the roses! I wonder how it would look the illustration finished o.o - I think I remember the second part being shared over Instagram or here? Hmmm, I felt a deja vú, or I could be wrong. This hurts so much. The way FJ does not see Rick on the eyes, says a lot of FJ's emotions at that moment combined with Rick's attempt to soften the moment, yet seeing how he fails is something he certainly was not prepared to receive as the outcome of the conversation.
