This is Suze

WhY I BecaMe A R3bel

Being here with my parents, especially my mother, I can see why I had to rebel. I had to find a way to relieve the tension, the fear, the stress, the constraint. My mothers life is all about control, having things her way. If things go her way she's "happy" barely, and things don't go her way she throws her toys out of the pram. My dad is there to make sure she is happy, pick the toys up, pacify her and avoid her tantrums. That is literally his job. My dad is the doormat to a control freak. I have been away for 5 years and I see...

Headed Home

Gorgeous Patrons....it's the end of the month and I'm going to be cramming this months content into these last two days of September! I have made a lot of content since my travels home to UK, coming up is a tour of my family home, I will be taking you to my high school, the beaches where I grew up, and sharing the emotional process of coming home to see my parents after 5 years.Lots of videos coming today and tomorrow...

Last day

Last morning in Gozo before I head to England for the first time in 4 years

Prophecy- Music Video

Hi Beautiful Patrons,Time for something CREATIVE for my $50 Patrons!Delighted with the new graffiti that sprung up in the abandoned hotel location here in Gozo and I have teamed it with a strong songI wasn't able to upload as a video it may be because of the music, I am not sure, so I have made it password protected: https://vimeo.com/750539941Password: proph3cyENJOY!!!!!Suze*Please remember that this content is for paying patrons only, please do not share or download, anyone found doing so will be removed and legal action may be taken

September catchup.......

Personal Videos

Happy 4 Year Anniversary!!!!This will be my last couple of months here on Patreon, thank you for supporting meYou can still keep watching all 4 YEARS of content by maintaining your subscription and supporting me that wayYou can also request personal videos at any timeThanks for watchingSuze ;-)

September

IT'S MY 4 YEAR ANNIVERSARY ON PATREON!!!!!If you'd like me to celebrate you can gift to Paypal: paypal.me/suzethecreativerebelWill this be my last month on Patreon?Will I move back to the UK?Anything could happen....

Hello September!

How is it September?!!!!What does this month have in store?Is it just me or has this year flown by?Well, first of all it's time after 5 years to go see my parents back home in England!The desire came to me today. I want my mum's cooking, to hug my parents, to watch movies with them, to visit all the places from my childhood and I'll be happy to share that with you.Plus with my patron drop it looks like I might not be able to afford rent next month, unless I can manifest some work, so maybe it will be a good plan to invest time with ...

Photo & Video Requests

Sneak peek behind my most recent patron video requestDid you know you can email me suze@thisissuze.com with personal photo and video requests?Sharing some photos with you from behind the scenesSee you this September for much much moreSuze ;-)

Do Guests like Fish Last 3 Days?

One Day in Sicily

As promised a little clip of me in Sicily, it was just a day trip but WOW Sicily is a magical place indeed. I would love to go back!

Sicily

Prepare for take off!!!!Time has finally come to get off the island and head to Sicily!!!!!More adventures on the way......I have 3 more videos to share with you plus some photos and a blog...STAY TUNED!!!!

Summer Adventure

Hey Patrons!I am back! 5 days with my visitor from USA, my first flight out of Gozo in 4 years!!!One day and one night in Sicily......I'll be sharing about my adventures in my next Vlogs plus footage from Sicily, WOW what a place!My little day trip to Sicily has broken the spell, and I can see that there are worlds beyond Gozo that must be explored. Places that have more ingredients that match the life i am looking for. There is something about Sicily that screams ENTITLED TO PLEASURE!!!! I could feel it in the people, in the air, it was se...

The Ways in which we judge ourselves

The challenge to accept all sides of ourselves is not a one time thing, it comes in stages and in parts. I discover new things that I dislike and do not fully accept about my self all the time. Awareness is the first step to becoming conscious of something, because without being conscious of something we cannot change it.In this Vlog, catching you up on where I'm at this month, a sizzlingly hot month here in Gozo, I share one of the things I don't like about myself but have to accept is a part of me, no matter how much I don't like ...

WhatTheWaterGaveMe

Delighted to share this underwater music video with you 🌟🌟🌟 EXCLUSIVELY for my $50 PatronsThank you to my July patrons for your patience as this took a little longer to pull togetherI have really enjoyed dancing under the water and I hope you enjoy itSuze 🌹PASSWORD: letthewatertakemeMusic credit: Florence and the machine: What the water gave me

CRAZY SPONTANEOUS LIVE!!! IN 10 MINUTES TIME!!!!

Here is the link:https://join.skype.com/MspzTYr8IZOl Held on Skype...11pm CET time

Just Friends?

You know how I've always wanted to meet an American man?Well, that is definitely happening, am American man is coming to visit me from Florida, via Siciliy, and I can't wait to meet him in person!But....are we just friends? Or is there more on the cards?So far, no red flags....looks all green to me!!!What could possibly go wrong?!Suze ;-)

Victories

August is here. it's HOT AF!In a month where it feels impossible to do anything in this humidity, I'm reflecting on the fact that a lot has been happening. Even though at times in life it can feel as if nothing is happening, when I look back over July i can see that someone very dear to me came to visit and it went perfectly.Reflecting on the month past.....And in my next vlog I will be sharing what's coming up...will there be romance on the cards or is it just a friend?to be revealed!!!!Suze ;-)

Sneak Peak Behind the Curtain...

it might sound awfully quiet.....but that's because I'm in process...Playing with some music video ideas from my underwater footage....the editing has begun....And Now I'm thinking it would be wonderful to have a song of my own to go with it....New updates coming soon on the AC Tier...Thanks for being here with me this August to see what unfolds.....Suze

My Underwater Universe

Under or Over?

Same image, reversed, which do you prefer? Above the water or under?Vote below...

Qi Gong II

Q i Gong is such a beautiful practise to get me fully in touch with my energy. I find it calming and grounding.Follow along and if you do, please send me proof and i'll reward anyone who does the practise with a prize!Keeping you healthy here on Patreon!Suze

End of July!

i do love the summer!I remember last July, it was so exciting, and i have a feeling that this one, although very different in quality is no different and that I have a feeling August could get hot for more reasons than just sun!Here's my update on all that has been hapneingTo my $50 Patrons I'll be posting a new naked qi-gong video today as well....Suze

Summer Holiday

Thanks so much for the space to have a little summer break with my nephew who I haven't seen for 3 years due to lockdown.It has been amazing. We burnt the candle at both ends, getting out in the ocean, getting to music jams in the evening, he wanted to stay in Gozo, i learned to drive a stick shift, until the clutch went, and we went back to taking buses. We have today and tomorrow together and then I take him to the airport on Wednesday. We have had 8 days together so far.I've got a sore throat and cough, so taking it easy and chilling...

Family Dynamics

This exclusion was a hugely upsetting situation for me.In this Vlog i am triggered and upset. it's helpful to let it out.Speaking of the artistic process our emotions play a key part. They can activate some life force in us which provokes us to create. They can keep us from creating. Handling all these emotions has been heavy but getting out to the ocean and creating underwater art was a great reminder of how art can be the greatest healer.*I had another "artistic process" video of me at the sea, unable to create because of jellies,...

Rebirth III

So much I can say about this piece, which for me exactly expresses the way I feel when it comes to my family. Unseen, rejected, excluded...It's time for a rebirth.it's time to release the old and start anew.Reborn to who I am and who I want to be. Free of the old voices of family in my head who treat me like I don't matter.It's time to be released.More on this in my upcoming Authenticity Vlogs over on the $25 tier

Rebirth II

I feel alive, returning to ArtI will be posting my artistic process on the Authenticity Challenge and posting the Art here for my $50 Patrons

"Rebirth"

Delighted to present to you my new Art entitled "Rebirth"A collection of Underwater photography(Filming by Glenn Rough, Artist & Editing by Suze)I will be sharing my process on the Authenticity Challenge Tier and sharing more photos and videos with you here

The Artistic Process

Sharing a bit about how sometimes i go to do something, make something, and the thing that gets in the way is more of an emotional stuckness than anything physical...Often what is holding us back is inside us, not outside usI'm so grateful I have the tools to dissolve anything that is creating resistance, but often the discipline to do that is the hardest thing of all!!!i'm heading down to the sea to start making my underwater video series now...Wish me luck!!!Suze

here is the link to tonights live....

join us....now...https://join.skype.com/M08KwWEir6S6two of you tried to join ramon and I, we keep calling you to let you in, you need to accept!!!! please write in the skype chat if you want me to let you in, skype apparently sucks!!!!