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All you have to do is ask
🕑 Added 2023-01-03 21:23:07 +0000 UTCBeen working
Going going going
Head bowed,
kidneys clenched
Quick—earth is burning
Burdens on shoulders
Be martyr—repent repent repent
And then—stop.
Fatigue
I need
I need
I need
Well, to be gentle
with me
Realize: really need tenderness,
Realize: really need Motherly love
spacious, all-accepting, always there
Really need to give that to myself
Been withholding adoration and sweetness from beautiful little body
Oh, fertile vessel. Sacred abode. Mysterious, pulsing creature. Just like you
I am vast and strange and lovely. Just like you. Yet withhold tenderness? No, that will not do
Unconditional love: the only way. Forgiveness. Over and over and over
Forgiveness. Over and over and over
Forgiveness. Over and over and over
Judgement, criticism, hatred made me deeply ill. Shame is disease. Want to scream this until my throat is slick with effort
Now show me every part of you. Unhide everything. Peel away the masks
I still love you. I still love you. And if I don’t, it’s because I’m scared
Doesn’t mean no boundaries. Doesn’t mean letting everyone and anyone in. ‘No’ is elegant, holy symphony
Perhaps simply softening, opening, curiosity. Seeing. Presence
Accepting and offering my soft body and to the body of the earth—ahhh, freedom
Tender touch. Barely felt
Can I be quiet enough to notice the subtlety?
Can I be still?
Everything around me, even my organs, moving—I am still
Here, a whisper, a prayer to myself:
May I know you, Georgina?
I’m having trouble feeling connected to you. Can you please show me how?
And then the chills. And tears. And oh oh darling, it’s because all you have to do is ask
And by Her grace, I felt. I came. Home again.
When you need support, I hope you can ask (yourself, a loved one, teacher, or guide), and that through this, you feel freer
You remember. You come home again
And when you are mean and critical and hot with shame, you forgive yourself
You ask—what am I scared of?
And you hold yourself sweetly. It’s ok. It’s ok, honey. It’s ok
Come home again
