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garden of the subconscious
the subconscious is endlessly fascinating to me. i have been thinking of how we blame others for doing things, when the majority of the time they are unconsciously enacting something and it is not even “them” that is doing anything. so what if we were to take total responsibility? this doesn’t mean getting walked all over. but more, seeing things clearly through discernment. perhaps it is more rare for people to outwardly and maliciously do harm. most of the time it seems that things are on autopilot and the mind hasn’t been trained to ...
you suppose
You suppose you are the trouble.But you are the cure.You suppose that you are the lock on the door.But you are the key that opens it.***bill durgin and i, in the studio.
paschimottanāsana
sun. (son). and secret bliss. in plain view. (see)?the emergence…the air. the spaciousness. obvious. glittering. the hidden fire within…***self, photographed by austin bell.
sand dunes
self, photographed by austin bell.
03.16.24
the lady bug. the face of the moon. the wailing tree frog. mary, the mountain.
sutra iii
this body is not me i am not limited by this body im life without boundaries i’ve never been bound and i have never died look at the ocean and the sky filled with stars manifestations from my wonderous true mind since before time i have been free birth and death are only doors through which we pass though which we pass sacred thresholds on our journey birth and death are a game of hide and seek so laugh and smile with me hold my hand let us say goodbye say goodbye to meet again soon we meet today, we will meet again tomorrow we will meet at t...
study, see
study yourself, find how you heal, and then help other people
mother and father on an early march morning
i am a voyeur to those who birthedme, i witness him with a body that has softened been cut open and sewed back together again and again nowhe stands, enclosedby white briefs his body illuminated by molten light and she with golden curlsruby lips and the gray suit enduring, so beautiful! a power that arises from darkness guiding him guiding him who cannot seei watch and i amnot daughter, something else in a single moment i see eternities of devotion
homage to the root, the door
the foundation was destroyed to be rebuilt with awareness… to be illuminated. unbound. bound. unbound—to be healed. to be loved. to be established in the eternal.
boundary
the boundary i have created is between me and me. in renunciation of that boundary there is liberation.
full moon in virgo.
the beautiful ania. grateful for it all. 🌕🫀✨
fox love: series + musings on the body
when i was taking these photos, a lot of body insecurity was expressed. she was constantly criticizing herself, and even asked if i could edit out her insecurities. i said no, i never do that. the body is perfectly imperfect. she kept criticizing herself, despite my reassurances. her partner was mostly silent, compassionately witnessing her and holding space for her to move through the process. i encouraged her, and told her that i see her as a goddess. i told her how many people are very insecure going into photo sessions, but how when they se...
poem + preview from a new series.
2-8-24 // ‘emergence from the darkest part of winter’ we sing in the belly of the beast we dance in the mouth of the monster we pray with demons seeing divinity disguised we love and we love and we love against all odds
sunrise this morning + reminders from friends.
2-6-24 / self portraits this morning at dawn. i have been reflecting in meditation on kindness + self love… words that are so common that they can feel empty, yet the actions are immeasurably powerful. without these, there is no harmony. inner or outer. and then there is forgiveness, but that’s for another post…i forget… i learn. i fall. i get up. again. it is like Yoga āsana, which constantly astounds me with its endless depth + mirroring of Life. i was with a friend the other day and he said something to me… i immediately had to wr...
hypnagogia
cerebral oneyou think it is over at the beginning you fall asleep on the threshold clever, full of mischief like the fox the fox the fox wake up!
full moon remnants
trust in the body’s Wisdom all will be let go at its own Time
non-linear time + sacrifice
“Once connected with the inner guru, often the message or call to action is daunting, a radical shift is required, something must be abandoned that we fear losing, something terrifying we need to grow must be faced. Since one thing is tied to everything, the entire edifice of our personality must be overhauled and expanded to integrate disavowed and lost parts of ourselves. We are an ever expanding mandala. Stasis is death. Once we heed the diamond queen's directive [the inner imbalances] inevitably resolve, their purpose fulfilled, but n...
in the meadow again, writings on wrath
the wrathful energy is an intense fast moving energy. it is anger without hatred. it is calling. what is it that transforms anger into fast moving compassion?
that vision which blooms through endurance
"When you have that vision, a calling and you feel you cant live without pursuing it, then you have to do everything you can to magnify the gift that you have. And its going to cost you, you have to be willing to sacrifice, you have to be willing to work really hard, you have to be willing to perhaps go years or quite a long time without recognition, without acknowledgement and in the face of all that you have to maintain your visionous vision.To be a real artist, at least the way I look at art, is that it is a sacred quest. You have to rem...
giving and taking
Tonglen is Tibetan for 'giving and taking' (or sending and receiving), and refers to a meditation practice found in Tibetan Buddhism. Tong means "giving, sending", and len means "receiving, taking". Tonglen is also known as exchanging self with other.Today in meditation practice I was struggling due to my own confusion. Confusion in not remembering who I really am. Spontaneously I began tonglen. Inhaling the confusion about our true nature, as a constricted ball of black smoke into the center of my heart. In the heart, h...
swiftly, the reverie
+ one of you helped me begin the book-making process. grateful.
