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bequeathed

exploring the mythical multifaceted working woman

lately (warning, dark and not suitable for fragile or recovering minds)

first, please do not feel pity or sorry for me, I am just sharing to normalize and make people feel less alone. to help, and to give myself the accountability to release what is not mine to control.I have a mental illness called premenstrual dysphoric disorder (pmdd)it makes me very sensitive to hormonal & chemical shifts in my brainspecifically GABA and serotonin receptors, it often times makes me wish I didn't exist!my brain becomes over stimulated with feeling to point that I can no longer feel anything and then the anxiety & intrusive m...

bequeathed, part 1 of (2 or 3?)

this lingerie set is vintage Givenchy,it was gifted to me by someone I have learned much from over the years.this was her first purchase to make herself feel more feminine after working hard at her first job at the at the age of 16having never felt beautiful (or rather like she could allow herself to be beautiful,) she purchased this and wore it to prove herself wrong, to find that beauty within herself through the exploration or clothingneedless to say I was moved and humbled by the handed down femininity, I was asked to honor the clothing by ...

heavily cropped part 2

on my IG post I chose to write about intention, mostly because I think we sometimes forget to consider our intentions most of the time. to ask ourselves what we want out of any given situation we insert ourselves in, and the why that precipitates and causes action (or reaction.) I think as humans, we do a disservice to ourselves, and to others, when we do not consider all aspects of our condition and internal mental monologue, brought on by existence and external circumstance, more deeply through introspection. I'd love to challenge everyon...

heavily cropped part 2

had to put this one behind the sub wall for obvious reasons...

Midnight Mischief, part 2

who am I in the night that no one finds but is sought and singled out for the desiring minds own affliction of prone imagination and misguided desire? what does the shape of me produce in equal or lesser form of that enigmatic causality of ardor (or rather smothered self for the purpose of serving an appetite)? it's slippery silk existence, hardly held and vastly fleeting, from one closed off moment to the next, diving deeper into the void of hunger, or perhaps a version of self knowledge and intellect. drip, drip into conscious existence u...

Midnight Mischief, part 2

tried something a little different with the editing style this time around~

Cat Woman or (the cat that at the canary) part 1

I don't know Patreon's policy on pubic hair, so I had to put this one behind a subscribe wall! you can access it by simply subbing!this set is just for fun 😼 meow~

Cat Woman or the cat that ate the canary part, 1 (front)

more forward facing images separately for you guys ♥️

Cat Woman (or the cat that ate the canary) part 1, front!

other title option: the cat's pajamas part 2part two will be all back shots, bb stay tuned ♥️

inside the doll's house, part 1 of ?

a commentary of what it feels like trying to connect in an intangible space where there are so many options to choose from. the more time I spend online, the more I realize how unoriginal I can be or perhaps that I just am, how many faces are here to decide from, how many voices wanting to be heard. I used to want my work to make me "special." but I realize now that nothing is all the special that pertains to the body, and perhaps it never was my form. I don't say this to garner pity or to be told otherwise, but rather the reflectio...

inside the doll's house part 1

a commentary on being but one of a million faces on the internet

Not Enough part 1 of 2

exploring the nuance of never being enough while simply being enough

Not Enough part 1 of 2

just for you 🤍

Not Enough part 1 of 2

I have such a hard time narrowing down sets, I want their feeling to cohesive, both in mood and in pose. so ultimately I broke this one into laying and upright poses, the second half will incorporate the upright poses (standing & kneeling) with the same mood. I decided to shoot these to let go of feeling inadequate, to release control over perception and the desire to be chosen, to be enough. And to just accept that sometimes we simply are not enough. And that these two circumstances, both adequate and inadequate exist at the same moment, the s...

Trying on Whimsical

I feel a strong sense of self betrayal of my inner aesthetic in this look haha....I hope you find value where I struggle to see it

Trying on Whimsical

When I say this was the worst fitting lingerie I have ever purchased...It was baggy and loose, and yet I still decided to try to create something in it despite the fact that it reflects nothing of how I feel or want to represent in my creativity. It's light and airy, when I prefer themes of intensity and depth...It felt like I betrayed myself to the fullest extent in aesthetics in this look! But I am trying to accept that this place and my wardrobing were not my strongest, and move on from that and hopefully learn to be more authentic to my...

Room Service, part 2

the submission that I felt, and enjoy feeling, is evident in these, and even more so in part 3~

Room Service part 2

to have you alone and under my controlsubmissive and willing

Room Service part 2

a special just for you ♥️

Free

As I want people to have access to my work, I will start publishing one free image of my choosing per set per week! 🤍 I'll start with next week's set, on the 31st, and go from there!Writing is a bit of a stand still at the moment, trying to find momentum on what emotions to dissect with words next

Outdoor Cat

jean shorts and a collar 🖤a lot of the recent sets I shot last month in Aspen are a little rushed and nervous looking, I was uncertain of the Airbnb I was going to be staying in, and upon arrival it was...not as depicted in the listing photos. So many, if not all, the shoots there are, to me, on the weaker side, so I decided to shoot less meaningful looks, many of these are just fun and lack any significant meaning, and that irritates me...so forgive me if I rush through them with only one part...

The Praiano Dancer part 1 of 4??

??could be more??

Colorado Summer 🌼

Sit Like a Lady, part 2 of 3

sheer clothing ❤️‍🔥sheer clothing ❤️‍🔥

the goat farmer part 2 of 5

in case you couldn't tell i really do love nature and all animals...the natural world brings me so much joy 🌸🐐 ps...does the title make sein case you couldn't tell i really do love nature and all animals...the natural world brings me so much joy 🌸🐐ps...does the title make sense yet? more parts to come, maybe more goats...it's nice not having to be in front of the camera by yourself sometimes 🤍

no title

travel worn, made a shoot out of a much needed shower heavily cropped, part 1 of 2 I was feeling awful the day I took these, and the day I etravel worn, made a shoot out of a much needed showerheavily cropped, part 1 of 2I was feeling awful the day I took these, and the day I edited them. I didn’t feel worthy, and I didn’t feel like being a person. I wanted to be one with the water and spill away down the drain, I wanted to lay there in puddles of myself, wondering how to recollect and shape what remained—and instead of fixing it. I sat w...